Naked + Afraid

Naked & Afraid

I was afraid to come and preach to you today. But that's not my job, it's Pastors. I've been trying to ask God to light the way I because it seems as if l've been in this pit of never ending darkness. I even told my leader not to let me display this heaviness and the way that I've been feeling. I've been asking God to help me sway these thoughts emotions a feelings away, but, I just can’t shake them. In this season, yea, this one I have been depressed like Elijah, fighting the urge to fall back into my old ways to cover the pain to be drunk like Noah, I've been proud like saul, & so down dirty and low, and full of shame probably the same way David felt when he fell with Bathsheba.

It's not like i've dome anything physically in this season but the devil just kept reminding me of the past life I used to live.

l've been Naked and Afraid and full of guilt and shame just as Adam and Eve felt in the garden of Eden.

Eden, the place of bliss + true Onessess with God, so God, IF I'm feeling all of these ways why in the world did you change my name? I thought life would change when I got up out of the water and was baptized in your hame but now it’s as if l've sunken into the deep waters of shame just like Peter. And the only way out is to lift my hands in praise even when things may still feel the same. Lord Please help me to cast away all this shame, pain and lying games from the enemy because at the sight of your name demons can only tremble and shake and be broken off, flee, and casted away. So LORD this is not my fight to try and overcome shame. But it’s yours. Because you already made a way, paved the way by dying on Calvary you paid the shame.

So by me reflecting on the things I’ve done and not being the creation you’ve made me. I only give the enemy a foothold in this cycle of shame. So father, when l'm feeling condemned, I will call out your name, because you’ve aready paid the price, so help me to shake these demons away and trust in your name. Because your name is above all names. So no more shame, just me, inviting you into my everyday. Help me to be bold because it’s already, Paid. There’s no need for me to be Naked and Afraid